what happened this morning...
dad's phone rang...
i opened my eyes...
i asked myself.. 'eh..why so bright..why's there sunlight..weekend already?'
the next moment i was busy texting my classmates..ask them to inform my tutor that i will be late..and there was a class test today.. when i reached 1 hour later, i had to do it outside the class..argh.. that kinda disrupted my thoughts a little..can't get full mark liao..nvm..
oh and i had to take a cab to nus..morning peak rate+erp cost about 23 bucks from eunos to nus.. now i know..haha..but the driver was cute..he kept telling me about how much he hates taxi drivers.. and all the nasty things taxi drivers do.. but he's still in the job..that's the funny part..
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sometimes i think what i study really contradicts my personality.. i am educated to analyse every situation thoroughly taking into consideration of every possible variable..but most of the time i follow my heart instead.. just do it..live for the now..that's what i usually tell myself to do.. hm..maybe i should look at this from a different angle.. perhaps it's more of a balance than a contradiction..=)
i guess i don't care much about doing the right thing.. there is no 'the right thing' in the first place.. ok.. yes.. whenever i am faced with the question of 'to do or not to do?' i let the willful self take over..

mindset changed

half way through the term break and i am just about to start revision. i must say i am doing the bare minimum for my academic work because that really is not where my interest lies. it seems like the more statistics theory i learn, the more i don't believe in them. sometimes i feel like i am wasting my time and money in school. i've had enough of fantasizing how the real world works, i want to enter the game right away.
i started giving tuition and working during holidays and tried to have a taste of making money. but these jobs hardly excites me. i always tell myself that i am still a full time student, therefore i must know my priority is still get get a good degree. guess i have changed my view a little now. my status is changed to part time student instead. dad has started the ball rolling, i shall join him and have some fun in starting a whole new biz. it's not easy i know. nothing is ever easy. but this love for riding risk is in the blood of our family after all.

sometimes it's not about what we have done..it's about what we haven't..
there are alot of things that i have not done..no courage to do..keep procrastinating.. i have to start doing them.. else i will be in deep shit...deep deep shit
i always thought that being free to do what i wanna do will make me happy..but in fact there are some rules i gotta follow.. in order to be happy..being totally free is not exactly the happiest..
time to inject some self discipline into my life..