visit to chinese sensei

i went to see this chinese sensei for shao lin...regarding my shoulder...
first he applied some cream and started massaging using a wooden stick..quite painful..
then his left hand hold my left shoulder..i turned my head to my left..see what he wants..just then i hear "plut plut plut..." i turned my head to see my right shoulder (injured shoulder) and was fucking shocked.. he was actually using a small device somewhat like a stapler and poking my shoulder..my shoulder was cover with blood..immediately i felt dizzy..i can't see blood..the next thing even more scary..he took out his bamboo cups and vacuum it then put on my shoulder to suck out the so called "huo"... after 5 sec i saw stars..he removed the bamboo cups one by one and i don't even dare to look at my shoulder because i know what is being sucked out..BLOOD! “师傅。。我很晕。。”，“你看淤血来的，黑色的” WHY!! WHY must he show me a cotton wool full of jelly like black blood! so gross..my whole body nuo diao..and only managed to stand up after resting for a few minutes.. i really can't stand the sight of blood..esp blood being sucked out!!!! ahhhhhh...and he asked me to go back next wed..i really don't know if i should go back..ok..to be fair..it really helps..and effect is immediate..feel much better after the treatment..but still gross..

first judo-related injury

last nite during judo training, i smashed onto the mat and landed with my shoulder first. immediately felt like my arm dislocated. went to one corner took off my gi and once of the mate(medicine student) came to examine my condition.
mate: ok la..no problem..maybe sprain
me: really not? how come my right hand like longer than my left hand!?
i was quite sian, nv suffered major injury during any training, not even in my many yrs of training full contact karate. more sian is that i walked around in nus then later took bus to nuh all the time half naked. i couldn't even lift up my hand to wear my t-shirt. well after x-ray and all that..came the good news..no fracture no dislocation..just severe pain..crap.. while i was in the hospital waiting to see the doc i saw many other patients, then i started to think, ppl injure in accidents or work..but i could have avoided the injury if i chose to play some safer sports like running or just normal workout. was i not treasuring my health? well..come to think about it now, isn't life about pursuing our passion..there are sacrifices to be made..and when we do sacrifice something for our passion, we don't need to ask whether it's worth it.

after mid term

midterms are over and i shall not talk about the results.. feel so relaxed now after all the test tensions.. but cannot relax too much because there are alot of things to be done. don't u ever wish that u can be freed from responsibilities and just do whatever that comes to your mind? i mean u don't have to meet dead lines, don't need to care about results..just do things that randomly pop up in ur mind. don't need to bother whether it's the right thing to do. hm..very idealistic..but not realistic..ok..shall stop this kind of wishful thinking..but at least for tonite i shall be lazy and do all the stupid things..